Sunday, August 9

Letter from my Heart of Hearts. . .


Dear Danielle,

U have to take life as it is & except the wrong turns in life you've made but to sit around & sulk doesn't change anything, it only makes u less of the person i know u can be. u need to build from this and learn, for this is a lesson that i feel God wanted u to learn from. u can't be so nice all the time & know when to draw the line. also if when u love someone do all is possible to make sure that u are not subjecting yourself into a deal breaking situation. All u can do is grown and as many have told u lately "do you" and try to get urself together, cus as i sit and think about it now, this past year u've been about everything else i.e parties & hangin out, instead of school and work. although Love has guided u & tried to make me see the light, but u were being hard headed and thought that everything would work itself out but it doesn't "if u want something to change u have to change it urself". these words should be ur push and drive, everything he's told u, taught u about the world and urself, take it and use it as well as u can. u have to step back and see the truth, which has brought u to the state of mind in which u want change in urself for the better, u want ur independence, u want your life. As for Love; if he's suppose to be there he will. u cant change wut happens in the future all u can do is grow. even though u may think that there's no one better out there or he's all u want but u have to see that its not all about u. does he think that there's no one better or that he doesn't want anyone else. yes u guys have invested many years in eachother & yes u feel he's the love of your life. but u hurt him & he needs time its the best u can do for him & urself

Love ur
Heart

Tuesday, April 21

. . . Take it as you will

When you asked me my reaction was
" yes i can"
Even though i didn't say it . . .

I couldn't say it & instead i responded
" i think i can. . .i. . .i want to be able to"
and then i felt ashamed, as though i failed

But then it accured to me I am I'm dealing & im still alive . . .

"But am i happy?" i thought . . .
". . .Sometimes"

And you looked at me asthough you knew wut i was thinking. . .
So you asked
"Are you happy?"

& i said
"yes. . . As happy as i feel i deserve to be"

"before you give me a crazy look . . . i've done alot of things in my life & i feel that God has put me where i am & he's put me into situations for a reason & so if this is where im suppose to be and this is how im meant to feel in this part of my life then . . . Yes i'm as happy as i feel i deserve to be"

& you said i'd have to disagree. . .

Henry Brown. . . 17 years too late

I called your name & you looked up at me
with familar eyes
i spoke & it seemed like you got a chill,
asthough you were seeing a ghost
then you realized i was real & uttered
" I dont know what to say"
& i replyed " I'm not mad at you"
As we looked into eachother faces
those missing pieces began to get filled
those eyes i see every morning
my chubby fingers
my button of a nose
& wild eyebrows gtm
i was memorized . . . atlast i found you
& as i said good-bye with a kiss to ur cheek
i walked away wondering
"Do i feel complete?"

Tuesday, March 31

=/. . .

im afraid for wuts to come. . .
im afraid of the future. . .
im afraid of change. . .
i . . . shouldn't be so afraid

i am not afraid of wuts come. . .
i am not afraid of the future. . .
i am not afraid of change. . .

if our love is strong it can with stand anything. . .
so if all goes well. . . no
wen all goes well i will be able to say i made it through the storm. . .

the test is yet to come.

Wednesday, March 25

ii got into school!!!!!
i got into
Cal State Los Angeles
the funny part is, i found out 20 mins ago
&& my first day is Monday

Monday, March 16

Rising Star

Elle Fanning... future star . . . Her earliest gigs may have been playing a younger version of big sister Dakota Fanning in I Am Sam or a budding toddler in Daddy Daycare but it didn't take long for this Georgia-born ten-year-old to become a star in her own right. This year, Elle stars in the drama Phoebe in Wonderland. And she had already appeared in two movies, Nutcracker: The Untold Story [which is a version of the classic tale], and The Curious Case of Benjamin Button alongside Brad Pitt, in which she plays a younger version of Cate Blanchett's character. Hollywood better get ready Elle is on her way & she comin out big

Completion 3.20.09


Currently recovering from being M.I.A

New blog format will contain :
Daily pieces that im working on...
Random Photos i've taken or taken by others of interest...
Videos that intrest me ...
Polls...
&& Links to other blogs that i feel should be seen....

Sunday, January 4

Wella see wut had happen was. . .


Sorry for the lack of post but i've been really busy. . . either im at work or im out with Kris. . . and i never get in before 1am.. . .

Friday, December 19

Fun. . . Fun. . .

Sarah's Birthday Dinner at Hooter's was mad fun. . .

Alanna & MiMi . . .


The Birthday Girl. . .


Ravioli. . .



Olympia & Brittney in the backseat. . .


i had a real good time. got to catch up wit some good friends. . .